As a result of familiar inheritance, personal shortcomings and mental struggles, repression and detachment are the only coping mechanisms I have learnt.
'What to do with a broken heart' I wondered, confronting the inadequacy of my emotional education as a male. When there is no more space to bottle it up, where does all the 'feeling' go?
Unarmed of a language to express negative emotions, grief, depression, anger, hate, are translated, through learnt masculine patterns of violence and aggression, into self-harming behaviour.
This is a personal narrative around self-destructive tendencies, an ongoing process of unlearning internalised unhealthy habits through their dissection and analysis.
